Monday, June 30, 2008

Marlene Dumas: Eros and Thanatos

(I'm still waiting for better images and permissions from the Museum of Contemporary Art press office; and will post them when they come. In the meantime, these small images are, frankly, pirated from cyberspace. Apologies...)

There's some catch-up to be done, here on The Buddha Diaries. Let's start with Thursday of last week, when Ellie and I went downtown to the Museum of Contemporary Art to see the exhibition of the South African-born artist, Marlene Dumas. Who would have predicted, twenty years ago, when painting had been pronounced "dead" and figure painting deader still, if that were possible, that today the world's hottest-selling woman artist would be a painter--and a figure painter, at that?

"Hottest-selling" means nothing, of course, in aesthetic terms. But I was moved by Dumas' unremitting, sometimes painful, always pitiless examination of the human body and the human face. As those who follow my blog entries know, I have written recently about Don Bachardy's work with the figure, about sitting for Bachardy, and have attempted my own "self-portrait" in words, so this topic has been much on my mind. In this context, I saw all of Dumas' work to be "self-portrait", even though none of it actually is. I believe that in looking at others with the kind of intensity her painting requires, Dumas is in some sense looking into the mirror and casting a penetrating gaze into her own humanity.

Given this subject matter, it's hardly surprising that her work hews closely to the classical, timeless "eros and thanatos" theme. Erotic the work certainly is, with its focus on (mainly) feminine sexuality, and the beauty--and vulnerability--of the female form: naked, often provocatively posed, sometimes mercilessly exposed to the voyeur's gaze.







Here and there, a male figure in a state of unambiguous arousal adds edge and context to the female sexuality.



Dumas' figures are palpitatingly alive, brimming with energy, desire, emotional complexity... We feel their flesh.



And yes, what would eros be without its counterpart, thanatos, the shadow of death? Dumas titles her show, tellingly, "Measuring Your Own Grave." In the poetic artist's statement included in the materials accompanying the show, she offers this explanation for the "somber title":

It is the best definition I can find
for what an artist does when making art
and how a figure in a painting makes its mark.


She shows us human flesh, post mortem, laid out, cold and blue, deprived of the life force that once activated it. She paints death masks,-the faces, I assume, of loved ones, or those who have a special meaning for her—as though to experience for herself the state of death, as much as to make a record of it.

Is it redundant to point out, yet again, that the flesh is mortal? That it is the source of the deepest--and most fleeting--of our pleasures (remember, the French call sexual climax a "petite mort", a little death?) as well as the most profound of our insecurities and fears? Perhaps. It has been done more times by poets and painters than anyone would care to count. And yet... here comes Marlene Dumas to do it for us one more time, in a way that no other human being ever has or ever will, and I for one am moved again to the contemplations of our shared mortality and, in particular, of my own. This is the ultimate teaching of the Buddha: the absolute knowledge that we all will die. It is well to be reminded of it, to keep it "in mind," if we wish to lead a fully conscious and compassionate life.

(As I was jotting these last words down, on a bench outside the market as I waited for Ellie to finish the shopping chores, a rather old, old man with grizzled beard stopped by to leer at me and offer a heavy sigh. "These women today," he said, a propos of nothing—and everything—“they don't wear bras any more." He used his age worn hands to describe, achingly, what he had seen. "You're still watching, then?" I asked, amused by his ancient, unapologetic lechery. "At my age," he told me with another big sigh, "that's all I can do." And chuckled wearily, and moved on.

Ah, eros! Ah, thanatos! We humans are so obsessively attached to each of them... No?

The Painting's Edge

Just back from the mountain.  I forgot to mention before leaving that I'd be up in Idyllwild for the weekend, at "The Painting's Edge."  I'm sure I have made reference to this two-week long residency for painters earlier in The Buddha Diaries, and of my preparations for the lecture I was scheduled to give there.  I can now report, briefly, that it was well received, and that I spent the entire day yesterday meeting with artists--thirteen, for a half hour each!--to talk about their work.  A fascinating, exhausting, and ultimately rewarding task--a part of the gig for which I was hired on, along with the lecture.  For those who might be interested, I'll be posting a link to the entire the lecture on The Buddha Diaries--probably as a sidebar--within the next few days.  It's really a kind of philosophical summary of my thoughts and feelings about painters and painting, and writers and writing in the contemporary, highly commercialized environment.  

I'll be writing more about The Painting's Edge when I've had time to rest up a bit and catch my breath.  For the moment, it's early morning, and I arrived back from the mountain after a long drive late last night.  Meantime, have a wonderful week...

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Going Deep: Mining the Inner Self

Idyllwild 2008

A number of years ago I wrote an essay that has received more response, among artists, than anything else I ever wrote. It was called “I Am Not an Art Critic.” I was widely applauded. Let me begin, then, by reiterating this popular declaration: I am not an art critic.

That said, I AM a writer, and I do write about art. Over the years, I confess to having written numerous critical reviews for national magazines. In my defense, however, I like to think that I use words in much the same way that a painter uses paint. I started out as a poet and, as a well-known contemporary French poet once said, “poetry is NOT a USE of language, it’s a madness inside language.” Or perhaps, to use a metaphor that I prefer, more of a dance with language. In this context, I like to think that I write everything as I write poetry… novels, articles, memoirs, art reviews... and yes, even what I have to say to you tonight. I would like you to think of this as a “reading”—a “poetry reading,” if you will, and to listen to it as such. What else does that stuffy old word “lecture” mean but reading? Because, yes, my own gift is as a writer, not a speaker, and I know that the words I write evoke not only meanings, but also images, wandering associations, physical sensations, feelings… As the poet Archibald MacLeish famously wrote, “a poem should not mean but be.”

(Has anyone actually read that poem recently? It’s quite a beautiful one. It goes like this:

A poem should be palpable and mute
As a globed fruit,
Dumb
As old medallions to the thumb,
Silent as the sleeve-worn stone
Of casement ledges where the moss has grown—
A poem should be wordless
As the flight of birds.

*

A poem should be motionless in time
As the moon climbs,
Leaving, as the moon releases
Twig by twig the night-entangled trees,
Leaving, as the moon behind the winter leaves,
Memory by memory the mind—
A poem should be motionless in time
As the moon climbs.

*

A poem should be equal to:
Not true.
For all the history of grief
An empty doorway and a maple leaf.
For love
The leaning grasses and two lights above the sea—
A poem should not mean
But be.

There. We could say the same thing of a painting, couldn’t we? A painting should not mean, but be…)

So… you see before you a man who writes rather often about art, but who judges that each one of you, as a painter, knows more in the tips of your fingers about art than I can claim to know after too many years of scribbling too many words in the attempt to name it. As the actor/comedian—and art collector-- Steve Martin is reported to have said: “Talking about art is like dancing about architecture.”

I’m also not entirely sure what “The Painting’s Edge” might be, unless it’s quite literally that place where the painting ends and the wall begins. Fair enough. But I particularly want to dissociate what I have to say from the term that is so cheerfully bandied about in art circles: the “cutting edge”—the next art world “–ism,” the direction of the future, the latest theory cobbled together by aestheticians who should have better things to do with their lives. Throughout my years as a teacher, art school administrator and writer about art, I have been dismayed by the way in which art schools and teachers of art have increasingly terrorized their students by requiring them to kow-tow to the latest theory to come along—too many of them, it seems to me, from that haven of intellectualism across the Channel from the country of my birth.

I mean France. We English pride ourselves on being pragmatists; the French have always been an enigma to us. (I’m by no means the first to observe that if you compare the two languages carefully, you’ll be surprised to find that the English vocabulary is rich with words and sounds that evoke infinite variations of material detail, while the French language is much more mellifluous and immaterial, stronger in words that facilitate abstract, analytical thought. But I digress.) The truth is that I have not only been dismayed by the art schools’ growing emphasis on theory, I have been befuddled, bewildered, outsmarted, left in the intellectual dust…

Thanks to friendly relations with numerous studio artists, however, I know that I’m not alone in acknowledging that I have difficulty reconciling the art I see with half of what is published in the art magazines—or that I’m getting more reluctant, these days, to devote the time it takes to actually read them. I look at the pictures. But when it comes to doing battle with the text, well…. Frankly, the brain staggers. Worse, for me, is the now familiar requirement that art students be fed this stuff and cough it back up in the form of an “artist’s statement”—presumably so that ignorant gallery dealers and the even more ignorant public—in addition to ignorant writers like myself--can be educated as to the splendid theoretical and critical underpinnings they’ve been told they need to justify their work and validate its significance to the world.

But, as they say, don’t get me started…

Another confession: I have no pictures to show you. I was immensely impressed, when I was invited to drop in on The Painting’s Edge this time last year, when the invited speaker, Christopher Knight—a man I consider to be a REAL art critic (and think no less of him for that!)—declined to show more than a perfunctory couple of slides or jpegs on the grounds that these reproductions of images had really very little to say about the art he was talking about. I bow to his superior wisdom. And besides, I figure that your heads are already fully occupied by the hundreds of images you habitually carry around with you as working artists, and the dozens more you have added to your collection in just this one past day. If you’re a painter, my guess is that your brain stores images a mile a minute. Why burden you with mine?

So what, you may well be asking by this point, does this person have to talk about? The truthful answer, I’m almost embarrassed to tell you, is myself. That sounds like an awful presumption, but I think this is a basic truth about all human beings and all creative activity. I believe that we do art—or writing—in order to learn more about ourselves, and to tell each other as much as is humanly possible about who we are. I look at your art in order to get to know more about you and your perceptions, and to learn what a fellow human-being has to teach me about myself and the world we live in.

Many years ago—I tell this story often enough to know that it holds great meaning for me—I signed up for a workshop at the Esalen Institute with an ancient wise woman, a shaman from the Mexican Huichol Indian tribe—the kind of thing that Esalen revels in. I remember absolutely nothing about the workshop—but for one of those great aha moments that sometimes surprise us with a flood of pure, incontestable enlightenment—those moments when we just say, gratefully, yes! Here’s what this wise woman told us: Unlike our Western tradition of “giving” a name to a baby on its first arrival in the world, the Huichols first ask this question of the new arrival: “Tell me who you are.”

“Tell me who you are…”

And I realized in that moment of epiphany that this was exactly what I was about. Everything I had ever written seemed suddenly to make sense in the light of this primal purpose: to tell others who I am and how I see the world. And then, through their work, to find out who those “others” are, that surround me and seek to make themselves known to me.

“Tell me who you are…” This is the essence of what I want to know when I come to look at the paintings you have made.

Here’s another lesson I once learned, whose message has remained meaningful to me all these years. I was not only a poet, in my younger days, but also a student of poetry. At the University of Iowa, while at the Writers Workshop, I took a course from a distinguished academic about Wordsworth, Coleridge, and the origins of romantic lyric poetry. These two British poets were amongst those of the period—the late eighteenth and early nineteenth century--who re-discovered the treasury of ancient Greek lyric poetry. As young men, they put together a collection of these poems in English translation called “The Greek Anthology,” and I learned that these brief lyrical passages—the origin, really, of all Western lyric poetry—were “inscription” poems, carved into the trunks of trees, on stone benches or walls—poems that were in a sense none other than that old “Kilroy was here”, inscribed to mark the ritual passage of a human being at that particular point in time, to tell us who they were.

So here it is: I expect and want no more nor less from a painting, whatever its edge might be. I don’t want a lecture about art theory and I don’t need you to tell me what your painting means. I want you to tell me honestly who you are, and offer me the opportunity to learn more about myself. I want to be able to recognize some part of myself in your paintings, and thus learn more about what we share, as human beings living on this precious and endangered planet at this particular moment in its history.

I will confide two contradictory things about myself. The first is that I am an intensely reserved and private individual… I have a whole big part of me that is appalled by the thought of being seen for who I am, that wants nothing better than to escape the prying eyes of others and their critical judgment, that would far prefer to run away and hide than to be seen standing here, speaking to a crowd of listeners who will surely see me for the dreadful fraud I secretly believe myself to be. Perhaps there are those of you who share this need for privacy and this fear of exposure? I happen to believe that it’s a secret part of many creative people. It’s what you might call the Emily Dickinson part.

But then I also have the Allen Ginsberg part, the opinionated show-off, who needs to be heard and paid attention to. This is the part of me that looks out at the world with outrage, the part that sees tyranny and injustice, acts of personal violence and war, and has an urgent need to shout out from the rooftops. This is the “conscience” part that feels a sense of obligation to my fellow-humans, that finds it almost obscene to fill my belly while so many others starve, to live at peace with myself while so many others are victimized by war. The part that refuses to keep quiet and disdains the need for privacy when so many public issues demand to be discussed.

It will come as no surprise, then, given these contradictions, that I respond to two very different kinds of painting--nor perhaps that I eventually see very little difference between the two.

I love painting that is obsessive, secretive, enigmatic, seemingly self-absorbed, mystical, concerned with the inner workings of the psyche and the mysteries of the universe, and indifferent to the material realities of the external world. This kind of painting is often, though not always, of course, abstract. It is sometimes, though not always, of course, monochromatic or minimal. I had the privilege to live for many years with a small painting by Yves Klein, the French artist who died at a very young age back in 1962. He was known, of course, for that “IKB”, his patented “International Klein Blue,” and for the monochromatic paintings in that intense, dusty cobalt blue that became his trademark. This particular painting sat on the wall of the dining room in our home. Small though it was, the space it opened up to the observing eye was an infinitude, reminding us every day of the vast void that surrounds our planet, in which our lives can seem tiny, fragile, insignificant—and infinitely precious. To be seen, the painting required a deliberate act of consciousness, a kind of leap into the void, an act of faith, an abandonment of the small self in favor of what I can only describe as an encounter with spirit. (You might remember also Klein’s leap into the voided, recorded in a famous photograph…)

That’s the big picture, the grand intention of certain kinds of abstract painting. It speaks to a part of me I have not yet mentioned, my discovery in recent years of the great spiritual resource of Buddhist teachings and their practical benefits on the path of life. (For those unfamiliar with my work, one of my main avocations at this point in my life is a blog called “The Buddha Diaries,” where I subject the experiences of my daily life to the scrutiny of Buddhist-inspired examination.) Because while Buddhism offers the context of a grand, spiritual vision—a vision with which the vision of an Yves Klein can resonate—it also emphasizes the importance of paying attention to the detail of mundane existence. Meditation is not, in my experience, first and foremost an approach to transcendence, but a way of learning focus and concentration in the world of practical reality. It’s the here and now, the action in the present moment that’s important: enlightenment may be the eventual goal, but the path is what we have to hand, which is real experience.

Meditation is also not easy. It’s not a purely right-brained, bliss-out activity. The path the Buddha laid out is in fact quite left-brained in its analytical precision: think of the four Noble truths, the eightfold path and so on. To follow the Buddhist path means, first of all, making the commitment to show up and, second, the exercise of a quite demanding discipline. To reach enlightenment, insofar as I am able, involves what for me has become a key word not only as a meditator but also as a writer: practice. We’ve all heard that corny old joke about the tourist lost in New York City who stops to ask directions from a native: How do I get to Carnegie Hall? The answer? Practice, practice, practice. Making good art is a matter of doing it and doing it and doing it again—I was about to add until we get it right, but that never really happens in meditation. Or, if it happens, happens in sudden and unanticipated ways, the kind of ways you can’t exactly plan for. I imagine it can be no different for a painter, working in the studio. First you show up. That’s hard enough in itself. There are always a million excuses, no? The kids. The laundry. The tax appointment. That long-delayed trip to China. Then the work begins…

Which brings me to a quite different kind of painting that I love. It’s the kind of painting that is an act of meditation in itself, an obsessive attentiveness to the action involved in making it, a means the artist uses (so I imagine) to access the deepest part of the psyche by eliminating every consideration save the making of each individual mark. I think of artists like Max Cole, for instance, or Agnes Martin, whose obsession fascinates the eye and compels absolute concentration from anyone willing to devote time and patience to following their practice. Of artists working today, I think of my friend Marcia Hafif, whose work is perhaps better known in Europe and in New York, where she spends half of the year, than in Southern California, where she spends the other half. Hafif works with small, monochrome panels, or at most with two areas of color juxtaposed with each other, building up layer after patient layer of meticulously applied paint until she achieves the particular perfection she strives after. For the observing eye, it requires us to follow along with each and every bodily movement, to “rehearse” Hafif’s act of painting for oneself if one wants to “get it.”

I love to be asked to follow the action of hand or arm, or to participate in the building of a particular texture, because these actions seem to invite me into the consciousness of the painting’s maker. It asks me to collaborate, in a way, in the physical act of creation, and through that collaboration to enter into the body-mind of the creator. The right brain, I have heard a speaker say, “learns kinesthetically from the movement of our bodies,” and when I find myself responding with that kind of “Yes!” to a painting, I figure that’s a part of it—the human body that we each inhabit and the movements from which we learn. So these aspects of a painting help me to actually experience a part of who that painter is—and to understand more about the relationship between mind and body: the way, if you will, the body thinks. A few minutes ago I cited that old adage, that “a poem should not mean, but be.” It’s this aspect of the painting’s being that excites me. There’s a magic to it, too: you show me how you do it at the moment of the doing, and the result is at once plain to see and a total mystery.

If I have dwelt thus far on abstract painting, it’s not because figurative and representational painting do not share these same qualities I respond to, but rather because abstraction—perhaps particularly monochrome abstraction—strikes me as their most extreme, and perhaps for that reason their purest manifestation. By the same token, though, the obsessively drawn line, the obsessively observed, recurrent pattern or image can also prove the vehicle for the kind of self-examination and self-revelation I’m speaking of. Here’s a poem I once wrote about a drawing by a friend, the artist Marsha Barron. It’s called, appropriately…



Drawing


The line proceeds directly
from the heart, through the hand,
to the white surface of the paper,
with all its awkward pauses,
its hesitations, its sudden jolts
and turns, uncharted passages
through anger, fear, and pain;
or then, long, elegant moments
of inexplicable clarity. A spindly,
long-stemmed thing succeeds
in not quite being a flower;
a chunky, volumetric shape,
in not quite being a vase:
objects that never were, nor
will be, but in the mind's eye,
now here, on paper, startling
in outline, an inner darkness
translated with fierce precision
into the real world of here-I-am.

I used the words “from the heart” in that poem advisedly, because this, too often, is the forgotten part, the part with which our hyper-active left brains feel most uncomfortable, and therefore prefer to leave unspoken or ignored. I could be wrong, but it’s my impression that the word is not brought up too much in art school critiques. And yet, in my view, it’s an important word, and needs to be “at the heart” of everything a painter does.

I trust it will be understood that in talking about the need for you to show me who you are, I am not advocating some simple-minded “sincerity.” Those who follow the path of personal sincerity too often end up with nothing more than sentimental pap. I’m looking for something sterner, something more rigorous, the kind of self-examination that is unafraid to explore even—perhaps especially—those parts of ourselves we would not wish to have known, perhaps even to ourselves. It’s an approach that involves personal risk, and at the same time integrates every aspect of what it means to be a human being. The word for what I’m looking for is something more like “integrity.” It’s an often-abused word, so I’ll try to be specific.

Another lesson from the past has remained meaningful in my life. A dozen years or more ago, I became deeply involved in the study of the masculine psyche—including, by now you’ll understand, my own. I learned about the archetypes of the lover, warrior, magician, king and their respective affective qualities of compassion, intention, intellect and creativity, and how the integrated personality needs to hold these qualities in balance. I came to understand that the fully integrated human being must also have an awareness of the earth he stands on (the reality of the world) and of the sky above (the field of idealism and aspiration) and that ALL these qualities must meet together at the center, the place of inner wisdom, the human heart.

This is the map of the psyche, as it were, that guides my own path as a writer and a seeker after the deeper truths of human nature. So when I speak of the integrity I’m looking for in a painting, the aspect I say Yes! to when I see it, it’s very precisely in the balance of these qualities. I may not be able to explain or expound upon them, but I’m never more sure than when I see them brought together in a single work of art: the physical, the intellectual, the emotional, and for want of a better word, the spiritual.

As I began by saying, it’s my belief that far too much privilege has been accorded to the intellect, at this point in painting’s history. Don’t get me wrong, the intellect has its place; an artist, even a painter, would be foolish to proceed without a good measure of technical knowledge of the medium and a firm grasp of art history—including, as needed, the work of contemporaries. But let’s not forget, or minimize, or subordinate, the co-equal roles of body, heart, and spirit.

I did mention earlier that there are two kinds of art that I particularly respond to. I have been talking primarily about the inward-looking, self-revelatory kind of art that tells me who you are. I would not want to close without at least mentioning the other kind of art that appeals to me, the outward-looking, sometimes political, often socially engaged kind of painting that wants to yell its sense of outrage to the world. I mentioned my blog, The Buddha Diaries, which represents the inward-looking part of my own work as a writer. You may also know that I do a counterpart to The Buddha Diaries in a podcast that I put together for Artscene Visual Radio. It’s called “The Art of Outrage,” and it gives expression to that other, public part of me that needs to be heard.

We live at a moment in history when there is more than enough to be outraged about. I have few friends, amongst the artists and the writers that I know, who do not share my anger at the actions and inactions of those in power, in recent years, in response to such urgent global issues as terrorism, population growth, the increasingly violent competition for dwindling resources, war, famine and the threat of disease, the extinction of important and beautiful life species, the routine abuses of our planet that threaten its very existence. I personally am angry at the religious as well as the political leadership, who vie for power and thrive on ignorance, intolerance, and violence. There is more to be angry about than I have time to include in this short list.

So I admire those artists who have the courage to address such issues overtly and with passion in their work, despite the still powerful influence of modernist thought that rejected such engagement. Bring on the politics, I say. Bring on the outrage. Bring on the satire and the scatological. Alan Ginsberg had it right: bring on the “Howl”! Since my allotted time with you is about to expire, let me draw your attention to just one artist whose work is currently available for you to view in a major exhibition--and who represents, for me, the epitome of this kind of art: his name is Peter Saul.

Saul’s work has consistently bucked the mainstream for the past fifty years. His paintings are outrageous, outraged, often unabashedly political (see his portraits of politicians like Reagan, Nixon, and Bush, for example). He feels free to use his work to explore themes of social injustice, and institutional abuses like corporate fraud, police brutality, and capitalist exploitation of all kinds. And yet—I made this point earlier—Saul is first and foremost a painter, as you’ll understand if you listen to my interview with him on “The Art of Outrage” in anticipation of his first-ever full-scale retrospective exhibition, currently installed at the Orange County Museum of Art. (And this, indeed, is why I bring him in as an example; I hope the mention will encourage you to make time to see this extraordinary show.) Saul paints what’s in his heart and on his mind. He paints because he has to, because that’s who he is. (It’s no surprise, of course, that this should be the first occasion for a major American artist who has been widely respected for so long by his peers to be recognized with a museum retrospective. Rather, it’s a sad commentary on the way in which art institutions sideline those whose work defies the currently accepted aesthetic canons.)

Which brings me to my very last point, returning to my major topic: me. I reiterate: I’m a writer. You’d think I’d love to go into a bookstore. But no. To me, the experience is nauseating beyond words. So many books. So much that I judge to be pure trash. Imagine the competition, once your book is written, to find an agent; for the agent to find a publisher; for the publisher to place a book on the shelves of Barnes and Noble; for the book to sell more than a handful of copies… It’s a chance in a million.

So I’m sure that you, as painters, as I do, as a writer, must sometimes ask this question: what in the world do I think I’m doing, adding to this immense plethora of STUFF with which the world is already overflowing? And I’m sure that you come up with the same answer as myself: because this is what I have been given to do; because I need, in however small a way, to mark my presence—here, at this moment in time and in this place—in testimony to my short passage here on earth; and because this is the only way I know to fulfill that purpose.

So, bless us all, we do keep doing it, don’t we?

Disagreeing with Obama

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Okay, here we go. Progressive Democrats like myself are already watching in some dismay as Barack Obama moves toward the center. The Supreme Court decisions on the death penalty and gun control have pushed the candidate into public statements on hot-button issues with which we fundamentally disagree. Here's Obama on the death penalty:

"I have said repeatedly that I think that the death penalty should be applied in very narrow circumstances for the most egregious of crimes. I think that the rape of a small child, 6 or 8 years old, is a heinous crime and if a state makes a decision that under narrow, limited, well-defined circumstances the death penalty is at least potentially applicable, that that does not violate our Constitution."


I am opposed to the death penalty in any circumstances, even the most despicable of crimes. I share the Buddhist view that the taking of any life is to be avoided. Even so, it has been proven time and again that our justice system can make mistakes, that people can be wrongly convicted--either through honest jury error or by dishonest prosecutorial conduct; and that it is inherently racist and demonstrably influenced by class standing and wealth. The death penalty, once carried out, is irreversible, and it is known that numbers of innocent people have been judicially put to death. It's my personal belief that the death penalty is a toxin in the lifeblood of our society, and we are indisputably in extremely nasty company in the community of nations in insisting on maintaining this barbaric ritual. In the eyes of much of the world, the death penalty calls into question the state of our civilization. I am absolutely firm in my conviction that it is wrong.

Here's Obama on gun control:

“I have always believed that the Second Amendment protects the right of individuals to bear arms, but I also identify with the need for crime-ravaged communities to save their children from the violence that plagues our streets through common-sense, effective safety measures. The Supreme Court has now endorsed that view. Today’s decision reinforces that if we act responsibly, we can both protect the constitutional right to bear arms and keep our communities and our children safe.”


I couldn't disagree more. I think the Supreme Court decision on the "right to bear arms" is an invitation to the NRA and its associates to open the flood gates on litigation to force other major cities to abandon the sanity of those few existing laws that protect our communities from the menace of guns. I believe that guns are out of control in this country, as witness the unending acts of violence on city streets as well as in our schools and workplaces. There is seemingly no reliable way to prevent maniacs and criminals from easy access to powerful weapons, capable of wreaking havoc on a large scale and dealing out indiscriminate death to innocents. As with the death penalty, America's image in the world is deeply impaired by this addiction to the gun. There has to be some middle way on which sensible people can agree, in order to stem the violence.

And yet, and yet, my liberal and progressive friends, my brothers and sisters in the battle for justice and sanity and basic humanity... let's not throw out our newest baby with the bathwater. Not this time. Let's not throw up our hands in shock and horror when he says something politically contingent. Let's acknowledge, bitter though it may be, the galling truth that not everyone in this country shares our convictions; that there are vast numbers of Americans---a majority, indeed--who do not share our views and who would not cast a vote for anyone, man or woman, who did not make public avowals like those Obama makes, above. The changes we seek in our society will come about only in part through leadership--though that is certainly important. They will come about only through the will of the majority of people, and there we must work, each as best he can, to change hearts and minds.

Of course we need to voice our differences. We will not be silenced. But as we speak, let's be clear about the picture that is bigger, by far, than any one of our disagreements. Let's voice them with clarity and conviction, but not with the kind of bitterness, disappointment, divisiveness and anger that give heart to those whose world-view has held dominion over this country for the past few decades. Let's be mindful of the goal and listen to the whole man, Obama, not to those things he is compelled to say, if only to avoid defeat. Let's try to listen to the heart even as we tolerate the strategist. Let's, this time, be real enough to win. Once that's done, then the work begins.

Ellie's Website

Last night marked the long awaited launch of Ellie's website. She has worked on it for quite some time, in collaboration with her site designer, the artist Dean Andrews and the photographer, Jeri Koegel. Between them, they have done an excellent job, I think, and Ellie is rightfully proud of the result.

Ellie's name has come up often in The Buddha Diaries, of course. In case anyone might have missed it, I am married to her. We have been together, in fact, for nearly forty years! But I have not mentioned her work before, so now might be a good time. After many years working on the facilitation of art sales, first as a gallery dealer and later as a consultant to private and corporate collections, she wearied of the money-driven aspect of the art world and decided to return to what she originally set out to do: to work with artists. And since the early 1990s, she has worked hard to develop a wonderful niche profession as an artist's adviser.

She stresses that she is not a representative, manager, or agent; she guides artists in the development of their careers and their studio work. Her goal is to help them become, as she often says, "their own best agent." Clearly, she is very good at what she does, since many artists keep returning to her office. You have only to look at their testimonials to get a sense of just how helpful she can be, and in so many different ways. It's highly individual work--except, of course, in the groups, which she and I co-facilitate each month.

I don't usually do promotions here in The Buddha Diaries, but I'm going to make an exception here: if you know of artists who might want to be aware of Ellie's work (even those in remote locations: she works well on the telephone,) please pass on the link. I think you'll be doing them a favor.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Speaking of Portraits...

... I happened to be going through our art stacks yesterday (sounds grand, but no: we keep them at the back of the laundry room) when I came across this picture of myself:


(Thanks to Cardozo for the picture of the picture, plus the older version of its subject--the one in the pink t-shirt. Do try clicking on it, just for fun.) The "portrait" was done in 1978 by the artist Richard Mock. If I look somewhat startled, it may have to with the circumstance of my life back then. Here's the story:

I had been hired on by (then) Otis Art Institute of Los Angeles County as Dean of the College in 1976. (Before that I was teaching Comparative Literature, but I was getting more interested in art than in literature, and I wasn't qualified to teach it. Hence the mid-career switch to administration.) When I arrived at Otis for my very first day of work, the Director called me into his office to inform me that the Los Angeles County Supervisors, who had footed the school's bill unquestioningly for its entire sixty-year existence, had just voted to cut off all funds as from the end of that year. It was taxpayer revolt time in California, remember. Prop. 13. The director resigned, in protest and frustration, and I, a total greenhorn in administration, was swiftly appointed Acting Director and charged with the task of finding an alternative future for the school. (I did--with considerable help, of course: Otis thrives, though in another part of town, and despite my absence!)

All in all, you won't be surprised to learn that 1978 was a pretty tough year. In the course of it, our gallery director brought in Richard Mock for a special performance/happening/exhibition. At that time, Mock was doing lightning five-minute portraits (I know, it looks like it) for anyone who would take the time to go and sit in front of him--students, faculty, board members... whoever might show up, and the pictures were then hung in the gallery for all to marvel at. Not many of the socialites whom we were courting for their fund-raising potential were much amused by the kind of pictures Mock was making. No wonder I look hounded.

When I checked Mock out online, I was sad to discover that he died a couple of years ago, at a relatively young age, "after a long illness." He evidently had an acerbic sense of humor and a cartoonist's skill--a skill that is also manifest, clearly, in his portrait painting. Pity the poor "Average American Voter" in this woodcut print:


Well, there you go. Another day, another portrait. I can't imagine what might show up tomorrow!

D-Day

No, I haven't mistaken the date of the Normandy invasion. It's D as in "demolition." Today marks the start of the remodel job at our cottage in Laguna Beach, and they'll be working with jackhammers down in the basement, breaking up concrete to prepare for an expansion of the "garage" area--never used, and never likely to be used as such, but required by city codes. In fact, as it stands, it would have been impossible to use as a garage for a modern car. Too narrow. It must have been built with a Model-T in mind. We park on the street. But we're opening up that basement area to allow for more storage than we presently have, and some clean working space, primarily for Ellie but perhaps, who knows, eventually for both of us.

Upstairs, the kitchen has been in serious need of attention for quite some time: we'll be reconditioning the grand old Wedgwood stove we inherited from previous owners, and likely original to the house, but adding a new refrigerator and contemporary appliances; and, at the same time, expanding the area to make it more easily workable. And then there's some work to be done in the two small bedrooms, to improve the cabinetry. The whole thing started out with thoughts of adding a bedroom and bathroom, but those both proved impractical in the course of design. It's a tiny place, and we love it as it is. We bought it more than fifteen years ago and over that time it has tripled or quadrupled in value, so it has more than earned its keep; and at some point in the future, we might want to move down there full-time. If we do, we'll have to settle for tiny--but with a brand new kitchen and more storage space down below.

In the meantime, we have months of remodel ahead of us, starting this very day. We are both excited and not a little anxious at the prospect. We have lived through two remodels before, and our marriage has survived--remarkably. Both jobs were hell. In the first, at our old house around the corner from where we now live, in a smaller place, the contractor went broke in the middle of the job and we found ourselves with liens on the house from the subcontractors. In both, the projected time and the costs had doubled before we were done, and the irritation factor between owner and contractor had blossomed into outright feud. We don't want to repeat that pattern, and have been much more thorough, this time, both in the detail of the planning and in the hiring of our contractor. Keep your fingers crossed for us! We will need to practice some of that Buddhist equanimity, if we want to keep our sanity.

Otherwise, this week, I'm preparing for my presentation at "The Painting's Edge," a two week summer workshop for--what else?--painters up in Idyllwild. It's a condensation of much of my thinking about art and artists over the years, and is giving me a good challenge to get it all down and get it, somewhat, right. If all goes well, I'll probably be posting it next week...

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Self-Portrait Revisited

I've been having further thoughts about that last entry since I posted it. It was only after the fact, surprisingly, that I realized the connection between my "self-portrait" and the piece I had written a couple of days before about sitting for Don Bachardy. My mind must have been storing these things up and putting them together in ways of which I was not consciously aware. Interesting.

The piece also produced some interesting offline responses. I heard from an artist friend in New York, for example, to say that it had inspired her to do the same--in her own medium, of course, not mine. That was gratifying. I heard from several others to the effect that they admired what they saw to be the courage that it took, first to stand there and look that closely at the body that has carried me around for so many years, and second to put it out there in public. I did think long and hard before hitting that "Publish Post" button, and nursed a good deal of anxiety about "what others would think"--a concern that was instilled into me as a child. It felt like a release, though, to finally let it go.

Most surprising to me, on reflection, was the fact that it took three passes through the piece to reach the recognition that this "stuff," the flesh, is really "not me, not mine, not who I am." Materiality, including the body, does seem enormously real to us, and it takes me a while to recognize, once again, that it's really nothing but a bunch of molecules held together by a peculiar energy. I'm finding that feat easier, these days, in meditation, where I find that I can fairly easily reach that point where I watch the body dematerialize as I sit. It's really a very pleasant feeling, that sense of dissolution, a kind of swimming apart of everything that seemed so persuasively put together in one piece. A kind of freedom from the earthly chains...

And now it's Monday morning, time to put everything back together--including, after meditation, the body--and get down to the gym for exercise, and back onto the freeway to Los Angeles. Have a blessed and peace-filled week...

Friday, June 20, 2008

Self-Portrait: Ecce Homo

Full frontal nudity. Still not quite drawing-room respectable, no? I bring it up because… Well, it’s a story. Suitable for The Buddha Diaries? We'll see.

It started out with a participant at one of our artists’ support group meetings the other night, who was speaking about the need for an artist to take risks, and what she believed to be her own deficiency in that aspect of her work. We talked a bit around what might constitute a risk, and I eventually offered her this challenge: to do a nude self-portrait, full-length, full-frontal. Well of course she turned it right back on me, and in so doing brought me face to face with all the ego investment I have in “looking good” in the eyes of others, along with the memory of all the fears I nursed, for much of my younger life, about being seen naked and exposed to the scrutiny of the world, and the attachment I have to this physical body I inhabit.

Well, I can’t draw for toffee—and more’s the pity, since I tell myself that it might be the easier way to make a true self-portrait of this kind. And a photograph would be a risk too far! But I can write. So here we go: unable to resist the challenge, I stood naked in front of a full-length mirror for a good half-hour this morning, examining what I saw before me and taking notes, which I will here transcribe—and perhaps elaborate as we go. It’s a risk. But it will also be a good Buddhist exercise, if I manage to use the process to free myself further from attachment by keeping in mind that what I see will continue to age, quite possibly sicken, and most certainly die. This is not me, this is not mine, this is not who I am.

So bear with me. Or should that be “bare” with me…? If you dare.

To start at the bottom and work up: toes, nicely formed and evenly spaced. Today, as is often not the case, the nails are reasonably trimmed. Nice feet, I think. Just a slight tendency for the right one to turn in, nothing serious. I note that the veins stand out a little more than they used to these days. Ankles narrow but not delicate, well-shaped, not too knobby. The muscles of the calves are better defined than most others elsewhere in the body. Same goes for the thighs, where the quads are nicely rounded, firm. Knees, again, not too knobby, though there’s some wrinkling of the skin just above the kneecaps, a sure sign of age. All in all, though, examining them now, I still consider the legs to be one of my better physical features, and attribute their muscularity to nearly a decade of long-distance running as a teenager, and a good deal of jogging in later life. They are not hairy-hairy, but boast a comfortable fuzz, masculine, in my judgment, without regression to the ape.

(Note the value judgments: what I like, and what I don't. This is where the attachment shows itself! This is not me, this is not mine, this is not who I am...)

Now, ahem, the genitals. If you’ll excuse me. I did say this was a risk, and it is supposed to be a nude portrait. But this is the hard part. We all know that these critters shape-shift according to the circumstance, from teeny-tiny, shrunken after that cold dip in the ocean to, well, the nobler and infinitely more impressive look under arousal. Here, in the mirror, this morning, let’s use the word “modest.” That feels honest. Circumcised. I’m not sure why. I never asked my parents while they were still alive. It did not, frankly, seem like a topic for family discussion. The attack on the foreskin may simply have been in fashion in the year that I was born. I don’t object. I feel comfortable with the appearance. I note that the testicle on the right (let’s be clinical here) hangs slightly lower than the left. The groin hair is abundant enough, without being thick. As with the legs, I am not, like Esau, “an hairy man,” but neither is the hair unduly sparse. Kind of a middle path. (This is not me, this is not mine, this is not who I am...)

The pelvic area recedes concavely, these days, from the lower belly—undoubtedly because the latter has expanded in the opposite direction. The lower part forms a kind of boomerang shape, its top right corner punctuated by a mole. The lower belly itself—and I blame my mother for this, she had it, too, as she grew older—has grown big and, not to put too fine a point on it, a wee bit flabby: the conventional “spare tire,” which comprises those “love handles” around the waist. There’s another mole, I see, on the left side, where the lower belly rises to meet, yes, the slightly more protruding mound of the upper. It’s what’s called indelicately a pot. I’m not proud of it. I carry my weight there, and I cannot blame anyone for the excess weight I carry except myself. It reaches from the sternum to the navel (oh, an innie, by the way, since we’re baring all,) ballooning out, if I relax the muscles, and dwarfing everything below. Not an elegant sight, in my own judgment. It also has a diagonal, almost foot-long scar extending downward from the center to right side, where surgeons opened me up and removed a couple of polyps from the duodenum and, for good measure, while they were at it, without asking permission from their anesthetized victim, the gall bladder too. Ah, well.

We proceed northward to the area of the chest. If I raise my arms above my head, the contour of the rib-cage shows. Otherwise, forget it. The pecs are in fact quite muscular, and can be made, with express tension and intention, to look pretty “manly,” in the Schwarzenegger sense. Relaxed… well, less impressive. Small, tight brown nipples, surrounded by slightly thicker hairs than those that fuzz the rest of the chest. (I have noticed recently that they have increased a bit in number and density—is this, too, something to do with age?) Sloping shoulders, fairly prominent collar bones on either side. A few more moles, scattered here and there. The top of the chest—the part most often exposed to the Southern California sun—is reddish-brown in hue, contrasting with the relative pallor of the rest of the torso.

(This is not me, this is not mine, this is not who I am...)

Arms. I have always been a bit self-conscious about my arms. They seem to me skinny, un-muscular—no matter that I have been working out in my latter years, and have succeeded in strengthening them. The biceps share something of the pallor of the torso, but the lower arms are brown from the sun. Here, too, light hairs, evenly spread, from the elbows down. The wrists are narrow, even delicate; the hands unusually small, the lines in the palms indeterminate, a bit scattered, divergent—not unlike the path my life has followed. The effects of age are noticeable here, too, in the veined backs of the hands and the creases that encircle the wrists. And the skin is noticeably less resilient than it used to be in younger days.

I flatter myself that my neck has a certain elegance. The Adam’s apple is visible, but not prominent as my father’s was, always bobbing angularly north and south. Many lines here, though, many creases. And skin that, when plucked between the fingers, does not snap back into shape quite so easily as it once did. A light shadow of shaved beard, leading to the (mostly salt now) salt-and pepper beard that disguises the very slightly receding chin that is another family heirloom, and surrounds the mouth, covering the upper lip and the full area of the nether chin. The lips, less prominent in this undergrowth, are not so full as I would like, since I associate full lips with the kind of full-blown sensuality I have always aspired to, though never quite, I think, achieving. They turn down slightly, naturally, at the corners—but the beard does much to disguise this feature, too.

My cheeks, this morning, show a little silver stubble. They are brown, and creased with deepening lines that follow the natural contour of my face. I think it’s a nice face. (This is not me, this is not mine, this is not who I am...) The nose is well-shaped, neither too long nor too short, not turned up, nor heavily broken in the middle like the “family nose.” Eyes blue, and though small, soft and kind. Again, my judgment. I know that people respond to them when they feel me looking at them. (I would like to think that I could actually bless people with my eyes, they’re that important to me.) Forehead, lined horizontally, with crows’ feet protruding from the corners of the eyes, and vertical slashes where the brows meet. Ears… well, Ellie complains that they stick out and make me look “nerdy” when my hair is cut too short, but usually I manage to grow enough of the silver stuff around them that they lose their prominence.

Does that do it? Have I met the challenge? I notice that the “self-portrait” in words is pulled almost inevitably into the area of judgment, and wonder if this is also true about a drawn or painted image of the self? Would it be easier, painting or drawing, to remain detached? Of course, in those other media, there’s an element of judgment in the way it’s done, but the verbal, narrative version does seem to me, by its nature, less open to the objective gaze, more unavoidably judgmental. I can’t just “photograph” in words.

I also sit here wondering whether I can post what I have written, whether exposure of this kind is appropriate on my Buddhist blog. And yet as I say it’s a very Buddhist exercise, just gazing into the mirror and acknowledging what I see there, in the knowledge that it will further age, and sicken, and die. It has to do with being real about myself, and realizing how very many are those attachments from which I seek to free myself. I realize that what I've written is full of contradictions. But in some ways, perhaps, it’s just as valuable to take that unblinking look at the outer "self" that I aspire to when looking within. If I do take the risk and post this study, I’d love to hear what—if anything—it might mean to others to read about another human body in this way.

Environment

My son sent me the link to this hilarious spoof. Suffice it for the day, if you have the time to check it out. Enjoy!

Thursday, June 19, 2008

In Our Garden...

... the roses thrive on the sunlight, despite the heat...





... the eucalyptus sheds its skin--and leaves!--and scatters them everywhere. What a chore!


(Click on this one, for full flavor!)

The agapanthus bloom, creating an ethereal blue carpet on the shoulders of their emerald green leaves and tall, graceful stems...





... the sassy morning glory wants to strangle everything with its clinging vines...





... and the Buddha sits serene as ever, with a fuschia in his lap.



All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well.

It's Wednesday... Blessings, everyone.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Obama: A More Complex Understanding

Thanks to Thailandgal for alerting me to this interesting site, Reality Sandwich. I found a usefully cautionary article about Barack Obama there, an excellent analysis of the candidate's position elaborating on what I have described before as a "we" rather than the "I" approach that we heard in Hillary Clinton's promise, "Elect me, I'll get it all done for you." As Douglas Rushkoff, the author of this article, writes,

Obama alone (well, actually he, Kucinich, and Biden) presents a more complex understanding of the challenges facing America. It's a "GenX" sensibility, really, that depends less on emotionality and choosing sides than on a post-ideological clarity, and an ability to embrace seeming paradoxes. One can disagree with certain things Reverend Wright says while still embracing his message and influence. To the post-boomer audience, this is not weakness but strength.


And,

The best thing about Obama is what appears to so many people to be his hesitancy. For many, it tarnishes his brand. As I see it, this is not lack of resolve at all but his greatest strength. He stutters and stumbles - but usually because he's trying to answer a question in a way that doesn't make himself out to be the answer to an abstract and collective problem. He understands that the presidency is itself a social construction, and that agreeing to "play" president is a mutual agreement - not a genuine ascendance. TV's West Wing may have done more damage to the Left than we know. It gave us undeserved solace during the darkest Right wing presidency in history, and created false hope of how much the White House could accomplish with the right leader in the Oval Office.


Amen. The bottom line is that Obama's election is not enough in itself to assure the change he's arguing for. We can't simply project it all onto him. It will require our work, our participation, our willingness to sacrifice. If those pieces are lacking, it really won't matter who's president any more.

Equal Rights for All

(Written yesterday afternoon.)

In an hour or so from the moment I sit here writing these words, the new California gay marriage law will take effect, and I imagine that thousands of couples will be clamoring to exercise that right at secular offices and religious institutions throughout the state. I say, hooray for those who seek to bless their relationship with this name, some of whom have been kept waiting for too many years for the rest of society to catch up with them. And a tentative hooray for California, depending on the result of that absurd petition--is it already on the November ballot--seeking to "define marriage" as solely "between a man and a woman"? What are these people so afraid of? Is marriage, in their eyes, so vulnerable an institution that it needs their intolerance to "defend" it?

These thoughts were inspired in part by an email, received Monday, with a link to the New York Times review of a new movie, "Chris and Don: A Love Story," about the British-born writer Christopher Isherwood and his life-long companion, the artist Don Bachardy. It was sent to me with a friendly reminder of Bachardy's gratitude for a catalogue essay I wrote for an exhibition of his "Portraits of Christopher"



at California State University, Fullerton, a number of years ago--an essay that started out with the words, "I learned to write from Christopher Isherwood." I was much moved by the pictures in the exhibition, in particular by the extraordinary depth of love they manifested between one man and another. Here's a part of what I wrote:

The portraits of Isherwood are exceptional [...] in that the relationship is exceptionally close. From them, we can only guess at his youth, since they cover only the latter half of his life. But we see his maturity, the decline of his body, his battle with illness and, finally, with death. Bachardy records it all for us with that camera-curious eye, sparing us nothing. What could be more honest, more touchingly vulnerable, than that 1985 picture of Christopher as a naked old man, reclining back away from us, his body exposed, with nothing left to hide? Or that haunting, unforgettable series of pictures of Christopher after his death, no more now than a useless, empty body, still strangely beautiful but ineffably sad, the abandoned remnant of a human life. In Bachardy's final tribute, we sense our own futile desire to cling despairingly to our beloved, and our own lives.



The "camera-curious eye" is of course a reference to that famous phrase from Isherwood's "Berlin Stories," recast first as a drama in "I Am a Camera," and later as the movie "Cabaret." It was in Isherwood's early work that I went to school on the serious, sometimes difficult art of exploring the world from that intimate point of view of the "I." He was the master--understated, precise, a little diffident, insistently clear and honest. His prose was the epitome of authenticity and almost transparent clarity. Like myself--though a great deal earlier, and with more scholarly application than I--he turned from an Anglican upbringing to a lasting interest in, and devotion to Buddhist teaching and practice. I was fortunate enough to meet him on a number of occasions much later in life, and treasure those memories with affection and respect. (I had cause to remember him, also, as the subject of one of the great early double portraits by David Hockney, when I was writing the Abbeville Modern Masters book about the work of that fellow Brit-in-exile.)

I re-read my essay on the Bachardy show this afternoon, and felt that it was good enough to share with those readers of The Buddha Diaries who might be interested. It's called, obviously enough, Don Bachardy: Pictures of Christopher, and I think it's worth a read, if only to get a sense of the depth of the relationship between these two men. I'm looking forward to the opportunity to see the movie.

As a footnote, Bachardy invited me once to pose for a portrait. It was an extraordinary and somewhat unnerving experience, to have that unblinking camera-curious eye trained on me for two hours at a time as he worked in silence at his easel. I was so interested in the experience that I actually asked the artist if I could return and pose naked for him, in another session. He happily agreed, and I must say that I learned a great deal about myself, about the difficulty of stillness and silence, and my feelings about my body under his scrutiny. I was immensely grateful for the gift. I will, however, refrain from sharing the results with you!

In the meantime, I'd be happy if you'd join me in celebrating the remarkable moment of 5:01 PM on Monday, June 16, in California--and voting, if and when it comes to that, AGAINST any attempt to reverse this long-overdue and simply humane law.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Sangha

It was a joy to be back in our sangha yesterday, for the first time in what seems like many weeks. To sit in silence for an hour in a circle of others committed to the same practice is to experience a kind of bliss, a sense of spiritual community that is refreshing to the mind and soul in a way I have found impossible to find elsewhere. It was a treat to see those faces I have come to know so well and love, even though I know relatively little about most of my fellow-sitters outside our Sunday gathering. Our shared commitment to a path of inner search and the practice of goodwill and compassion in the external world creates, for me at least, a deep bond that I value more than I can say.

My own sit, yesterday, was one of extraordinary calm and ease. Most often, sitting for that length of time, my mind wanders off in countless different directions, remembering past events and planning for future ones, inventing its own fantasies and stories in the attempt to keep it distracted. It's usually a struggle, at some point during the hour--particularly, I find, towards the end--to maintain a quiet and focused attention on the breath. Yesterday, it all seemed to come naturally and effortlessly, and the hour flew past. Before I knew it, the bell sounded, and I found myself wondering if I had been asleep. But no. No one remarked about having heard me snore--as I have been known, embarrassingly, to do! And my head was clear. It was just one of those glorious sits that seem perfect in every way. A rare gift.

Our talk, in the hour following the sit, was about travel, about America viewed from other parts of the globe: about our values; about Las Vegas and the glittering promise of the pursuit of happiness perverted into the pursuit of material wealth; about the opulence of the tsars and the obscene salaries of hedge fund managers and corporate executives; about the nature of happiness itself in a world that gives so much to so few and so little to so many. Our talk was perhaps a little more chatty than the dharma talk and readings that occupy us on many other Sunday mornings, but was nonetheless enjoyable and mutually instructive for that.

In the afternoon, it being Father's Day, I sat with my friend Brian--a father, like myself--and smoked a Gloria Cubana cigar out on the back patio. I will confess to being something of a skeptic about these Hallmark card days, but I had great joy in hearing dutifully from each of my three (no longer!) children in the course of the day--from Matthew, visiting with his in-laws in Montpellier in the South of France; from Jason, in flooded Coralville, by Iowa City, which has been much in the news; and from Sarah, in Los Angeles...

And I pondered once more the grievous irony of Tim Russert's death, at the very moment of his son's graduation from college; and so shortly before Father's Day, for a man whose father meant everything to him, and a father whose love for his son, and pride in the way that son has grown to be a man, are deeply touching reminders to all of us of the true values in this life we share. I sent this letter to the NY Times:

There's a life lesson for all of us in the shocking suddenness of Tim Russert's death. One of the great hindrances in contemplating the end of our lives is the fear of not knowing the end of the story. What a sad irony, in this light, that Russert died without being allowed to know the end of the greatest story of his professional life--a story in which he was so passionately engaged. He must have been looking forward with enormous excitement to the party conventions, the campaign in the fall, and the night of the November presidential election. All this was snatched from him by the intrusion of an event so unanticipated that it shocked an entire nation. It's a sad reminder of the fragility of life and the unpredictability of its conclusion.


It will be little short of a miracle if it gets published, of course, but I thought it worth saying, anyway.

Have a great week!

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Tim Russert

I'll miss Tim Russert. He always struck me as a man of integrity, and I was touched by the loving sense of family which seemed to bond him so closely with both his father and his son. I was also drawn by his passion for his work. You can't fake that twinkle in the eye with which he greeted every new surprise. As an interviewer, he seemed fair, thorough, probing, and genuinely interested in what his subject had to say. When he sensed evasion, he knew how to push further with polite insistence. I learned a lot from watching and listening to him, and I'll miss his ability to put political matters into a sane perspective.




There's a life lesson for all of us, of course, in the shocking suddenness of his death. Readers of The Buddha Diaries may recall that one of my own great difficulties in contemplating the end of my life is not knowing the end of the story. What a great irony, in this light, that Russert died without being allowed to know the end of the greatest story of his professional life, in which he was so passionately engaged. He must have been looking forward with enormous excitement to the party conventions, the campaign in the fall, and the night of the November presidential election. All this was snatched from him by the intrusion of an event so unanticipated that it shocked an entire nation. It's a sad reminder of the fragility of life and the unpredictability of its conclusion.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Impeachment: To Heal the Wound

Buried in the news (NY Times p. 21, short para., LA Times no mention that I could find): Congressman Dennis Kucinich has the guts to call for the impeachment of George W. Bush on the floor of the House. Finally someone does the right thing--and no one pays attention. It might have escaped my own, but for a Huffington Post link shared with me by an anonymous correspondent. Back when he was still a candidate, struggling against the neglect afforded him by the media, Kucinich would have been my first choice for President, based solely on his policies. I wrote to that effect back then. Now, despite the opposition of his party leadership, he speaks out for the truth and I applaud him.

Quixotic, perhaps. But necessary. The first time I heard this matter discussed by a Democrat was shortly after the mid-term elections, when the party emerged victorious over the still powerful Republicans. I was at a small gathering with Congresswoman Loretta Sanchez, where she was asked her opinion of impeachment. Her response was essentially that it was too late, potentially too time-consuming and unnecessarily divisive, a misplaced use of the new Democratic advantage. I suppose this was the rationale that Nancy Pelosi and other leaders applied in rejecting efforts to bring the Bush administration to account for its actions. At the time, I myself was swayed by Sanchez's argument.

I now think differently, and have done so for some time. I believe that a wound must be cleaned if it is to heal properly, and that the wound to the American Constitution, to our political system and our society is a grave one. It will continue to fester below the surface for many years to come if it is merely patched up carelessly or ignored. So far as I can tell, our body politic has not yet recovered from the disaster of Vietnam and the lies of Richard Nixon; the wounds of Bush's ill-advised rush to war in Iraq, his dishonesty with the people he was elected to serve and his besmirching of America's reputation in the world are deep and still bleeding. He and his co-conspirators must be held accountable if for no other reason than the need to heal these wounds, and impeachment is the most powerful means at our disposal.

Kucinich is right. Bush should be impeached, not out of malice--well, maybe a little out of malice--but so that we may finally learn the truths he has so long hidden from us, and begin to heal.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

What I Wish I'd Heard Her Say

I realize it's a bit late to be writing about that concession speech some days after it was delivered. I watched it in real time in England, and the days have passed in something of a travel daze for me since then. Besides which, I'm quite sure that everyone else has had their say by now--and what I've heard has been very largely positive. It was a good speech, for sure, delivered with both appropriate sadness and unabated passion for the causes for which Hillary has stood.

There is, however, something that I wish I'd heard her say, and did not hear--or heard it only muffled by the powerful feminist subtext. I wish, when she heard the boos, as I did, and the cries of "Denver! Denver!", that she had been able to go off script and say something to those of her ardent supporters who can see no further than their Hillary. I wish she had been able to say something like this: "Listen, I do appreciate your loyalty. I'm honored by your passion and devotion. I'm flattered that you think so highly of me that you're convinced that nobody can do the job but me. Thank you...

"Thank you, but... I want you to understand that this is not eventually about me--and it's only in small part about my being a woman, no matter how ground-breaking that might be. I do take credit for that, with I think justifiable pride. But this is more importantly still about the ideas we stand for, the principles we believe in, the policies we seek to have implemented for the good of the country. I want you to understand my view that, in these matters, there is little that separates me from Barack Obama and much that separates me from John McCain; and that to even threaten to withhold your support from Obama is to make a mockery of those ideas, those principles, and those policies.

"I think we all know, in our hearts as well as our heads, if we think about it, that what is promised on the campaign trail will certainly be modified by real life political contingencies. Obama and I have differed, certainly, in some details--not only in our approach to health care, but in other matters also. But on the big issues--such as the pressing need for a universal health care system or the need to disengage from a disastrous war--we have no disagreements that cannot be resolved with thoughtful discussion and negotiation. I have noted, even, that the Senator prides himself on his ability to maintain an open mind, and that he promises to listen attentively to ideas other than his own. You may be sure than mine will be among them.

"I do not want you to think of these words as merely an endorsement--though they are that. I want you to understand very clearly that you now have an opportunity and a responsibility to change your mind. I do not ask for, nor do I need your further support. Your love and regard are welcome, and I thank you for these gifts of recognition. As for your political passion, however, I ask you to abandon the notion that this process was in some way unfair to me, even if you believe it to have been so, or that to press forward in my quest would be productive.

"I understand your disappointment and your anger. Truth be known, at some deep level, I share both of them. But, to those of you who boo at the mention of Obama's name, know that you will deeply disappoint me and betray everything we have fought together for if, out of pique or spite, you fail in your responsibility to hold to the values that we share. You will not be doing me, yourselves, or the country any favor. It's time, now, for us all to move beyond personal acrimony and vindictiveness, and to work for what we know to be the common good..."

If I add my own little quibble this late in the game, it's because I take seriously the senator's promise to do everything she can to assure Obama's election in November, and because I believe that this slight adjustment in the tone and tenor of her communications is needed to achieve that end. While I understand that some of the above was implied in what she said last Saturday, I wish she had been able to transcend that imperious, constantly reiterated "I" and exhort her followers to embrace the perspective of the "we". That might have done something to influence obdurate positions, and would certainly have left me feeling reassured that she does mean what she says.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

I'm Back...

I'm back. A good night's sleep last night, after a sixteen-hour journey from my son's house in Harpenden to our home in the Hollywood Hills. Culture shock set in as we drifted down over the San Bernardino mountains for a landing at LAX--and into the polluted air of Los Angeles. The freeways, though crowded, were a dream compared to the traffic we encountered in Moscow and St. Petersburg and, yesterday morning north of London, en route to Heathrow. Our garden looks beautiful, but overgrown. This morning, the New York Times arrived on our doorstep, with three great articles on the opinion page.

Okay, I'll need a little time to get my feet on the ground, catch up with the mail and the neglected office work, and get some rest. But The Buddha Diaries will resume its normal course. Greetings to all!

Sunday, June 8, 2008

The Last, From Europe

Yes, to tell the truth, I am blog-weary as well as travel-weary. I will be brief. On our return from Cambridge, my sister kindly came to pick us up at Harpenden railway station, and we spent a couple of pleasant hours over lunch before returning to the family house here. A blessed hour or so of rest and a while spent playing with the children before heading out, we five adults, myself and Ellie, my son Matthew and Diane and my sister Flora, to a very pleasant dinner at a Harpenden pub, just a short drive from home. Here we are, most of us:



Diane...


Flora and Ellie...


and Matthew....

Flora came over Sunday morning for a cup of tea out on the lawn, staying until the family left on an expedition to the Luton Hoo,




a modest little country estate, converted recently into an upscale hotel. We wandered around for a while inside, a motley crew, somewhat misplaced in the grand surroundings,






then ventured outside into the gardens surrounding the mansion. Picture time.










After which, we repaired to the stables, a ways distant from the house, where they have opened a brasserie-type restaurant for the hoi-polloi, with neatly set tables surrounded by movie stills from pictures that were made here ("Four Weddings and a Funeral," "Eyes Wide Shut," and many others.)



(Alice is trying on Ellie's glasses...)



A nice lunch, only briefly interrupted by my artful spilling of red wine all over the table--and myself. Ellie and I opted out, when done, for a brief walk at the edge of the woods surrounding the stables, where we found dozens of old-growth rhododendrons, a personal favorite of mine since childhood, when I grew up amidst a grove of these glorious flowering shrubs. I took many pictures, of which these are a few...








Back home, Alice left for a Hawaiian-theme birthday party, doesn't she look beautiful?



While the rest of us had a lot of fun with keraoke, courtesy Playstation 2,





and a lovely family dinner, expertly prepared for us by Diane.



And... an early bed. Here's Matthew, looking like I feel!



Today, Sunday, we're looking forward to a day of rest.